Dream or Reality?

How to make the difference? Someone said to pinch myself and if I feel pain, I am awake. But am I really? How do I know for sure?

Lately I dream a lot about waking up in my own dream and waking up again just to realize that I am still in a dream. At one point I get so freaked out that I am scared I might not wake up at all…to reality. So, when I think that I am finally awake…how do I know for sure that I am not still in a dream?

You might think that it makes no sense what I say. But hear me out for one second: I live and I feel more when I am in a dream. How is that possible? Why, when I am awake, I feel like my mind and body are hibernating? I feel like I can’t be myself, I can’t say or do what I want, I can’t be someone, because there is no space for me in this world. I have this feeling that all I do is bother those around me. Though when I dream, I feel alive. I feel the feelings, I feel the life! When I get scared in a dream, I am scared to tears, I feel terrified! I feel like screaming and crying and running (though most of the time I can’t do either).

A dream that hunts most of my nights lately is that I wake up in my bed, I get up and I realize somehow that I am dreaming. I say to myself that is time to wake up and so I do. Just to realize that I am still in my dream. And so it goes a few times until I finally manage to open my eyes and breath slowly, somehow relived that I finally woke up. I can’t help it though, and I have to wonder: Am I really awake?

If you have any books about dreams and how the mind works in situations like this, please feel free to share them with me. I am in need of some helpful information.

Thanks for reading! Have a great night with possibly no dreams at all!

Cristina B.


7 thoughts on “Dream or Reality?

  1. I love abstract dreams – the ones that seem so obvious and logical when you are in them, but then after you’ve been awake for a few minutes, and piece them back together, you realise it was all utter nonsense 🙂

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