I thought 💭…

I thought I had a friend. 

I thought that I was actually accepted by someone without judgement and just because. 

Ohhh how wrong I was! 

It didn’t hurt to realize that the friendship was not there…

It hurt to realize that I fooled myself one more time…

Maybe I learned my lesson this time.

Reality is that I don’t have a friend…only the need to have one…

Why is it so easy for some people to have a bunch of friends and yet so hard for some to have just one? 

I’ll never have an answer for that! 

Cristina B.

Dream or Reality?

How to make the difference? Someone said to pinch myself and if I feel pain, I am awake. But am I really? How do I know for sure?

Lately I dream a lot about waking up in my own dream and waking up again just to realize that I am still in a dream. At one point I get so freaked out that I am scared I might not wake up at all…to reality. So, when I think that I am finally awake…how do I know for sure that I am not still in a dream?

You might think that it makes no sense what I say. But hear me out for one second: I live and I feel more when I am in a dream. How is that possible? Why, when I am awake, I feel like my mind and body are hibernating? I feel like I can’t be myself, I can’t say or do what I want, I can’t be someone, because there is no space for me in this world. I have this feeling that all I do is bother those around me. Though when I dream, I feel alive. I feel the feelings, I feel the life! When I get scared in a dream, I am scared to tears, I feel terrified! I feel like screaming and crying and running (though most of the time I can’t do either).

A dream that hunts most of my nights lately is that I wake up in my bed, I get up and I realize somehow that I am dreaming. I say to myself that is time to wake up and so I do. Just to realize that I am still in my dream. And so it goes a few times until I finally manage to open my eyes and breath slowly, somehow relived that I finally woke up. I can’t help it though, and I have to wonder: Am I really awake?

If you have any books about dreams and how the mind works in situations like this, please feel free to share them with me. I am in need of some helpful information.

Thanks for reading! Have a great night with possibly no dreams at all!

Cristina B.

Ufff…It’s been so long…

It’s been so long…such a long time that I opened the computer to actually write something. Who cares about my bla, bla, bla anyways? 🙂 Probably nobody, but for some reason this blog was always my ‘go to place’ when I felt that I am falling apart. It’s been some crazy busy few months and there are other months waiting for me. I decided though, that I’ll come back to my reading blogs and share things on my blog.

So I had this crazy idea about making money online and I changed my life and my blog and I tried to learn about networking and marketing and all that stuff. It took me just a few months to realize that this thing is not for me. So yeah, maybe networking is the future, who knows? From what I see around me, the end of the world might just come sooner rather then later. Too dramatic, you think? Well…I don’t know about that! 🙂 Yeah, back to making money online. So…this thing is really for people that know what they are doing, that are passionate and that are ready to invest money and invest again and again. Or so I think anyways. After, there is this thing of making friends online. You know what the problem is with that? That so many people that you meet online, the so called ‘ Let me help you and teach you how to make $30 000 per month’ are mostly just a bunch of people that all they want is your money to share with you things that you already know! Yeah!!! Do you know how many time in these few months I subscribed to online seminars about how to make your online business work and all the time I was just hearing things that I know already?! Many, many times! Anyhow…I am not saying it might not work and that all are liars, but yeah…you gotta be careful out there as many of them really don’t care about you or your business, they just want your money.

On another note, how about all the politics and manifestations that go on and on in the world? And I am not talking just about the United States. Also, there are parts of Europe that start to feel the pressure and want to make a change. So, I stayed as far away as I could from all the posting on social media about these things, not because I don’t care or that I don’t have an opinion about it, but simply because my opinions seemed to be somehow different from what people were sharing. At one point, I decided to share a thought about some thing that I thought was stupid. And ohhhhh boyyyy! People jumped on and told me that I’m so judgemental and that people can do whatever they want and that I should not attack people like that. LooooooL. Yeah, that is what I have to say about that! Because I find it so strange that everybody seems to think they have the right to share their thoughts and opinions but as soon as someone thinks differently they feel attacked. And those people that start with philosophical stuff (I meant to say sh*t) that analyze every single word you put out there, as in : ‘ohhh, if you say this than in reality you mean this, and you say this because of a deeper problem that you have and your ego and bla bla bla’. I have an opinion and that’s it. I don’t see why we should analyze every single word that I say or write. Goshhh…not to mention that apparently I  have an ego problem so this girl advised me to read I don’t know what book. So instead of telling her where to put that book, I just cleaned my Facebook list! Yup! Winter cleaning happened on my Facebook. Not because they don’t accept my opinions but because they think I should accept theirs but they don’t accept mine. So, out of my life they are. Who needs people like that anyways? I don’t!

Now that I am done my bla, bla…How is everyone? I actually missed my blog and I know I’ve been absent and I didn’t read any blogs lately (shame on me) but I am getting back to that! 🙂

Have a great night my dears! I’m so happy to be back! Stay safe!

Cristina B.

#bookreview …La Liste – By Jérémy Demay – A list of 10 books to help ourlife

Jérémy Demay is a French comedian that arrived in Quebec, Canada 10 years ago. He came with a dream, and without friends and family, so far away from home, he had to fight to achieve it. He wanted to be a famous comedian. Unfortunately, not long after his arrival, Jérémy Demay suffered from depression. Realizing that something has to change in his life, he started to work on himself and after a lot of suffering and hard work he finally managed to see the light. He is now living his dream. He decided to share with his audience things that helped him improved and things that helped him with his depression.

I received this book as a Christmas present from one of my dearest family members and I thank him for giving me this book.

In his book La Liste, Jérémy Demay shares techniques to improve our own self and books that one should read in order to be able to do so. I will list all the books (that I added on my To Read goodreads account) because I want as well to improve my person. I want to be able to live for myself and not care what people around me say or think about me. I want too to live my dreams and I want to fight for them, but I feel sometimes this urge to give up, for no specific reason; from fear. Here are the books that  Jérémy Demay suggests we should read in order to improve and grow as a person:

1. The Artist’s Way, A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity ‘s Way – Julia Cameron


2. Think and Grow Rich – Napoleon Hill

Reflechissez Et Devenez Riche / Think and Grow Rich [Translated] (French Edition) by [Hill, Napoleon]

3. You’ll See It When You Believe It – Wayne Dyer


4. The Power of Your Subconscious Mind – Dr. Joseph Murphy

5. The Science of Being Great – Wallance D. Wattles


6. The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire: Harnessing the Infinite Power of Coincidence – Deepak Chopra


7. Daily Love – Mastin Kipp


8. Change Your Thoughts – Change Your Life: Living the Wisdom of the Tao – Dr. Wayne W. Dyer


9. Stillness Speak – Eckhart Tolle


10. Les mots sont des fenêtres (ou des murs) – Marshall B. Rosenberg


If you are struggling in your life and you don’t know in which direction to go, if you wonder how to find your inner peace, if you want to live a happy and a quiet life, I hope these books will help you as they helped Jérémy Demay. I really want to make some changes in my life so all the above books are added to my list and I will read them one by one and work hard to achieve the life that I want. Just remember: There is no such thing as too hard or too late! If you want it (with all your heart and mind) you will have it!

I do recommend this book and 5 stars are a must ❤! 


Thanks for reading!

***cover photos from http://www.goodreads.com and Amazon website***

Cristina B.

#bookreview … Marley & Me by John Grogan


Marley & Me by John Grogan is a nonfiction book. John and his future wife were just starting their life together and they decided to adopt a puppy. They fell in love with Marley, a Labrador retriever, who was indeed amazingly cute as a puppy. What they didn’t know, is that Marley was to give them the hardest times of their lives. Even so, John and his wife loved him till the end and Marley proved to them that no matter how bad the behavior, a dog is a man’s best friend. 

My review:

I bought this book, in French, at a garage sell and I was super excited to read it. The book is so well written that from the beginning I could imagine that I was there with them, living all the excitement that one feels when a puppy is brought to the family. Soon I was laughing with tears at all the craziness that Marley was creating around him. I couldn’t help but question myself if I would be able to keep such a ‘troubled dog’. I was reminded over and over again, by Marley’s sweet behavior that no matter how the dog acts, once you decide to adopt you cannot change your mind. A dog should stay with its owner for life, as once he came into the master’s home, he is now part of the family. I fell in love with Marley. He was crazy, and he was chewing everything that crossed his path, he was not listening at all but he was always loving and caring when the time would ask for it. As the writer said at one point, Marley basically shows us that a simple life is a happy life. 

Where to get the book: 

If you wish to read this book, which I highly recommend, you can check on Goodreads to see where you can get it from or try your local library:

Marley & Me – John Grogan – On Goodreads

Marley and Me – by John Grogan – French version – Amazon Canada

Marley and Me – by John Grogan – English version – Amazon Canada


I am giving this book 5 stars everywhere I can because it is now one of my favorite books. 


Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoy the book.

Cristina B.

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Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! 😜❄️☃️🌨

Up to now we received a bit of snow here in this part of Canada. This part of Canada is in the province of Québec. Today however, we woke up to a lot of snow that, to be honest with you, I wasn’t really happy to see. Let me show you, it’s not over though, it is still snowing (🌨☃️❄️):


Luckily I’m done early today so I can enjoy a good book without the outside cold. I hope you guys have better weather in your part of the world. If you enjoy snow, can you please make me like it too? 😜😜😜😜😜😢❄️❄️❄️❄️😢

Stay safe! 🙂

Cristina B.

10 #books for a bookworm

With the winter holidays around the corner, we always wonder what could be the perfect gift. If you are like me and you buy your stuff whenever you need them, than you are hard to shop for. Some people might think that something that represents Christmas is the way to go because what else could you buy to someone that already has everything they need, right? My answer would be: not exactly. If someone has the pleasure to buy me something, I suggest something that I might actually use and enjoy.

I’m a bookworm and everyone around me knows it. I find that the bookworms are the easiest people to shop for. Here is a list of books that I would love to have and I am pretty sure other bookworms might enjoy:

  1. Spilled Milk: Based on a true story – by K.L Randis


2. A Long Walk to Water: Based on a True Story – by Linda Sue Park


3. Paperboy – by Vince Vawter


4. One Crazy Summer Paperback – by Rita Williams-Garcia


5. The One and Only Ivan – by Katherine Applegate


6. You Will Not Have My Hate – by Antoine Leiris


7. The Best Kind of People – by Zoe Whittall


8. The Couple Next Door – by Shari Lapena


9. Safe With Me – by K.L. Slater


10. The Sister – by Louise Jensen


Conclusion: If you have to shop for a bookworm you can always give them a book. Like this, you know that you really made them happy. 🙂

Piece of advice: Before shopping online always make sure that you choose the correct format as books come in different forms: paperback, hardcover, for kindle and audio.

Enjoy the books and Happy Reading! 🙂

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Cristina B.