I thought πŸ’­…

I thought I had a friend. 

I thought that I was actually accepted by someone without judgement and just because. 

Ohhh how wrong I was! 

It didn’t hurt to realize that the friendship was not there…

It hurt to realize that I fooled myself one more time…

Maybe I learned my lesson this time.

Reality is that I don’t have a friend…only the need to have one…

Why is it so easy for some people to have a bunch of friends and yet so hard for some to have just one? 

I’ll never have an answer for that! 

Cristina B.

Dream or Reality?

How to make the difference? Someone said to pinch myself and if I feel pain, I am awake. But am I really? How do I know for sure?

Lately I dream a lot about waking up in my own dream and waking up again just to realize that I am still in a dream. At one point I get so freaked out that I am scared I might not wake up at all…to reality. So, when I think that I am finally awake…how do I know for sure that I am not still in a dream?

You might think that it makes no sense what I say. But hear me out for one second: I live and I feel more when I am in a dream. How is that possible? Why, when I am awake, I feel like my mind and body are hibernating? I feel like I can’t be myself, I can’t say or do what I want, I can’t be someone, because there is no space for me in this world. I have this feeling that all I do is bother those around me. Though when I dream, I feel alive. I feel the feelings, I feel the life! When I get scared in a dream, I am scared to tears, I feel terrified! I feel like screaming and crying and running (though most of the time I can’t do either).

A dream that hunts most of my nights lately is that I wake up in my bed, I get up and I realize somehow that I am dreaming. I say to myself that is time to wake up and so I do. Just to realize that I am still in my dream. And so it goes a few times until I finally manage to open my eyes and breath slowly, somehow relived that I finally woke up. I can’t help it though, and I have to wonder: Am I really awake?

If you have any books about dreams and how the mind works in situations like this, please feel free to share them with me. I am in need of some helpful information.

Thanks for reading! Have a great night with possibly no dreams at all!

Cristina B.

Ufff…It’s been so long…

It’s been so long…such a long time that I opened the computer to actually write something. Who cares about my bla, bla, bla anyways? πŸ™‚ Probably nobody, but for some reason this blog was always my ‘go to place’ when I felt that I am falling apart. It’s been some crazy busy few months and there are other months waiting for me. I decided though, that I’ll come back to my reading blogs and share things on my blog.

So I had this crazy idea about making money online and I changed my life and my blog and I tried to learn about networking and marketing and all that stuff. It took me just a few months to realize that this thing is not for me. So yeah, maybe networking is the future, who knows? From what I see around me, the end of the world might just come sooner rather then later. Too dramatic, you think? Well…I don’t know about that! πŸ™‚ Yeah, back to making money online. So…this thing is really for people that know what they are doing, that are passionate and that are ready to invest money and invest again and again. Or so I think anyways. After, there is this thing of making friends online. You know what the problem is with that? That so many people that you meet online, the so called ‘ Let me help you and teach you how to make $30 000 per month’ are mostly just a bunch of people that all they want is your money to share with you things that you already know! Yeah!!! Do you know how many time in these few months I subscribed to online seminars about how to make your online business work and all the time I was just hearing things that I know already?! Many, many times! Anyhow…I am not saying it might not work and that all are liars, but yeah…you gotta be careful out there as many of them really don’t care about you or your business, they just want your money.

On another note, how about all the politics and manifestations that go on and on in the world? And I am not talking just about the United States. Also, there are parts of Europe that start to feel the pressure and want to make a change. So, I stayed as far away as I could from all the posting on social media about these things, not because I don’t care or that I don’t have an opinion about it, but simply because my opinions seemed to be somehow different from what people were sharing. At one point, I decided to share a thought about some thing that I thought was stupid. And ohhhhh boyyyy! People jumped on and told me that I’m so judgemental and that people can do whatever they want and that I should not attack people like that. LooooooL. Yeah, that is what I have to say about that! Because I find it so strange that everybody seems to think they have the right to share their thoughts and opinions but as soon as someone thinks differently they feel attacked. And those people that start with philosophical stuff (I meant to say sh*t) that analyze every single word you put out there, as in : ‘ohhh, if you say this than in reality you mean this, and you say this because of a deeper problem that you have and your ego and bla bla bla’. I have an opinion and that’s it. I don’t see why we should analyze every single word that I say or write. Goshhh…not to mention that apparently I  have an ego problem so this girl advised me to read I don’t know what book. So instead of telling her where to put that book, I just cleaned my Facebook list! Yup! Winter cleaning happened on my Facebook. Not because they don’t accept my opinions but because they think I should accept theirs but they don’t accept mine. So, out of my life they are. Who needs people like that anyways? I don’t!

Now that I am done my bla, bla…How is everyone? I actually missed my blog and I know I’ve been absent and I didn’t read any blogs lately (shame on me) but I am getting back to that! πŸ™‚

Have a great night my dears! I’m so happy to be back! Stay safe!

Cristina B.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! πŸ˜œβ„οΈβ˜ƒοΈπŸŒ¨

Up to now we received a bit of snow here in this part of Canada. This part of Canada is in the province of QuΓ©bec. Today however, we woke up to a lot of snow that, to be honest with you, I wasn’t really happy to see. Let me show you, it’s not over though, it is still snowing (πŸŒ¨β˜ƒοΈβ„οΈ):


Luckily I’m done early today so I can enjoy a good book without the outside cold. I hope you guys have better weather in your part of the world. If you enjoy snow, can you please make me like it too? πŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜œπŸ˜’β„οΈβ„οΈβ„οΈβ„οΈπŸ˜’

Stay safe! πŸ™‚

Cristina B.

The stranger, the dog and his master

The stranger walks with her young kid in the parking lot of a big north american store. From far away she sees this white bundle of fur excited to see everyone walking by. As she approches she sees the white puddle next to her master. He is blond, beautiful blue eyes, he sings in a corner almost hidden from everyone. His hat next to him holds a few dollars, probably given by people that passed by. The stranger instantly thinks that she wants to help this man and she has a plan.

As she walks in the store, holding her child next to her, she completely forgets what she is supposed to buy for herself. All of the sudden her needs are not important. She immediately goes in the animal food aisle and she grabs a box of dog food. The kid asks her mom what is that for, as they do not have a dog.

Have you seen the man sitting outside with his dog? she asks. He is not as fortunate as we are, he has a harder life than we do and if nobody helps him he cannot enjoy life as we do!Β 

The kid watches his mom with amazed eyes. They pay the food and walk outside.

Hello sir! How are you today? I bought some food for your cute dog! Here it is! she says while giving him the box of food. Also, I do not have a lot of cash on me and there is no bank around here, but here, take this 10$! It’s for you! I didn’t know what would you like to eat!Β 

His eyes! Tears! Excitement! Gratefulness! He starts thanking her and he says that he has some food for his dog that other kind strangers like her gave him. He says that the food was almost over and he thanks her so much for her kindness.

It’s the least that I could do for you! I wish I could do more! Just take care of yourself, ok?Β 

She tries not to look at him with pity. She knows that he probably doesn’t feel comfortable with the way people look at him. She says goodbye and walks away hoping that others will do the same for this man and his dog. At the same time, she hops from the bottom of her heart that her child learned a lesson today: always help others in need! We don’t know their life story so instead of judgment we should give them more understanding.

Cristina Burcus

4 things that I learned from the #angrybirdsgame

A few years ago we bought the XBOX 360 Kinect. We genuinely thought that we will use it pretty often and why not use it as a way to work out. There are so many games for it, games that really make you move so much that your entire body hurts next day. Well, we did play for some days and obviously we got bored after. What I think killed our excitement was also the fact that the kids were so young that could not fully understand how to play, so it was a constant fight on who should play and how to do it. We mostly use it now for when people are coming over and after we got all the discussion subjects out of the way. The game that we play with people is the one below, as it has multiple sports that you can choose from and you can also add multiple players:

I deviated a bit from the subject! 😁 What I want to write about in this post is how a specific game, which is Angry Birds, made me see life differently.

Some time ago, I tried to play Angry Birds on my phone. I say, I tried, because this game was always getting me so angry and I was never able to pass a level so I was ending up frustrated and irritated. We bought the Angry Birds for the XBOX and I remember thinking that this will only annoy me so much that I will probably not touch it. And it was the case for many months. Until a few weeks ago when, randomly, I started to play it with my partner in crime plus the kids. And while playing and actually enjoying it I realized some things that made me reflect on life:

1. When you need to resolve a problem you might want to ask for advice and choose the best one for you.Β There are really hard levels that I honestly think on the spot are impossible to pass. But you see, there are 4 minds looking at the same problem and we advise each other and guess what?! All of the sudden, the hard level is not so hard anymore and the response is just there in front of us.

2. There are multiple ways of solving a problem. Sometimes one of us passed the level using a technique but the next one playing restarts the level by mistake. As the next person plays the same level using a different technique we all say that noooo, this is not the way to do it. But we are all surprised when in the end, using a different way, the level was past! This means, that a problem can be resolved in multiple ways and just because others don’t agree with you, it does not mean you are wrong in doing what you are doing.

3. When I finally want to give up I give it another chance and that’s when I pass. Sometimes I try and try to pass a level but no matter what I do I just can’t pass that level. I start to get frustrated and I think to myself that I’ll try just one more time and I’ll give up. I won’t say that it works ALL the time but I swear that 90% of the time I always pass at that last try that I give. What does this means? If you feel like giving up just try one more time but make sure this last time you give your all. I won’t promise it will necessarily work but chances that it will are pretty high.

4. Sometimes I get so angry and frustrated that I just need to take a break. After I played the same level and I applied #3 and it still didn’t work I decide that a break is needed. Either I take a 10 minutes break or maybe I’ll play again next day, but I assure you that once I’m back with my mind cleared, that level does not seem so impossible to pass anymore. So, whenever you feel defeated, take a break. When you come back to whatever you are doing, things will make much more sense.

I’m sure there are many more things that I’ll discover along the way. I’m sure that people will think that I’m not normal to compare a game with real life. I’m also sure that we all see life differently. But these things are popping to my mind every time I play the Angry Birds game. And now…I really don’t get as mad as I used to when I open this game! ☺️

Thanks for reading!

Cristina B.